-No tears today
-Lots of smiles all around
-Hung out with Yen after many months of not seeing her! Felt just like our first year :)
-Had a productive 3 hr meeting
-GREAT study session for my midterm tmr with Will Kim
-Did above average for my other midterm!!! (This is super rare)
Conclusion: it’s good to get back into my old groove. I’m relearning me and it’s not as painful as I thought it would be.
I’m a boss ass bitch.
Today is kind of a cop out; it sucked pretty badly, so this is literally a photo of my bedroom ceiling now that I’m lying in bed with the lights off. Pretty done with this week.
Ice cream solves all problems. Dolla scoop that shit.
There was a split second there where his like, “wait, what? bro what are you doing?”
On more serious note, PTSD dogs for veterans are so fucking therapeutic. They’re like the one person you can spill your guts to and never worry about ever being judged or have that secret divulged. There are times when I definitely prefer the company of a dog over a human.
Therapy animals save lives.
These dogs are even still so much more amazing. They check rooms before their handler enters, so they can clear it to help the person feel safe. Like in the gif, they are there when panic attacks or nightmares occur, to be something for the person to help ground themselves on, or yes just to turn on the lights. Even more amazing, many people are able to reduce their medication when they have a PTSD service dog there to help them. These dogs are useful for not just veterans, but also victims of abuse, accident trauma, natural disasters, and others. Their training allows them to be useful in situations where medical assistance is needed, as well. Some PTSD dogs are trained to recognize repetitive behaviours in handlers, and signal the handler to break the repetition and stopping the behaviour and possibly injury.
Service dogs in general are just awesome. Remember to respect any that you see out in public. They are not there for you to walk up to and play with, even the puppies!
Once again, it’s me against the world. I guess I’ll hold my own hand for a while.
I’m not okay right now, but I will be. A relationship is about give and take, One person can’t give their all only to receive minimal reciprocation. There were so many nights that I fell asleep crying next to you, I think deep down I am a little relieved that I won’t have to continue doing so. I really thought we could make it work, but if you’re more worried about future resentment you might hold because of our differences rather than meeting me halfway to overcome them, then I won’t convince you otherwise. You know me inside and out, if you can’t accept me, then there’s nothing left.
Thank you for this past year. I love you. Goodbye.